Coming to the end of a 2 week break from the loony bin has given me some time to think about how things are going

Come to some conclusions

My 'efforts' to lose weight were an epic fail - still stuck in the get depressed so I eat to feel better etc

Suse pointed out the fact that there is the Gym across the road (was trying to avoid that cause of the pain and such) and thats the obvious good idea and it's getting to the point where I don't realy have a choice

So I'm going to try really hard to change my eating habits starting today and going to see if I can go for 24 days (till next payday) if I manage that then I should feel noticably better I will then join the Gym across the road (Theo and Suse are members and I am unable to resist giving my friends the oportunity to have a good laugh)

(Insert rolling of eyes and muttered 'here we go again')

Going to really try, can't do anymore than that - okay?

PPI claim number 1 came back in (got £1300 or so coming my way) which translates into a washing machine, a Sofa/Chair package (not the glorious £400 one I wanted but there you go) clearing 3 bills completely (freeing up enough so I can go out more than once a month buy books and save), Ikea shelving (enough to take the entire collection I think) and get the obligatory games stuff for me

PPI claim number 2 still being looked at but I have some hopes


Regardless of how much I fool myself love life still non existant - ah well got used to that

Going to be doing more things my way/that I want to do and not bothering with what other people think about it.

Work remians ridiculous (provided the whole operation hasn't fixed itself while I was off HA!) but it pays the bills - I used to care about it but not any more.

Got new players for my Pathfinder campaign one of which is almost completely new - had an idea for an old fashioned D&D dungeon (with traps and stuff) planning it out with some of the GW scenery I've got in mind it's going to be quite cool (if I do say so myself)

I think thats it for now

Going to try and update every Saturday Morning

J

PS 16 weeks to Christmas (roughly) :)

Sometimes you have to just do something thats fun

One of my fondest memories from many years ago was wating outside FP when it was in Broadmarsh to get my standing order - latest Xmen was out the second Brood story when Longshot in the team (I think they may have still been based in Australia) and it did not dissapoint (the brood had superpowers and it was a great fight)

Anyway a year or so ago I stopped buying comics for 2 reasons I couldn't afford it and I didn't have the space

Since then I've had a promotion and moved into a 2 bedroom flat on my tod so problem solved

DC are restarting their lines (main universe) 52 titles are starting again with updated origins for some, updated costumes (Wonder Woman still has that Jacket apparently), updated histories for some but not all

So far out of the 48 titles they've revealed I've added 26 to to my wish list the final 4 should be the Superman titles and I've never been massively interested in the big guy

The reset aint happening until September and I'm jumping back in

I'm doing this because I love comics and because I can afford it (normal service will not be affected by this)

Becuase I am quite bad at doing some of the things I should be doing at the weekends I have made myself the following deal

If I can get Flat Cleaned (normal weekend chores), sort out my games collection (properley in otder) and sort out some NPC stuff I've been putting off I'm going to see Thor and Xmen first class tomorrow :)

Pretty much forgot about this thing so an update

Work remains disappointing the feeling that I'm pretty much wasting my life hs increased to the point where I've had to make some decisions and am putting into play some new plans

I've signed up for another OU course starts next year called 'my digital life' weird course it covers the general state of play of information tech as it stands now, stuff on the history of the computer and some computer building projects.

After that more courses until one day (if I can figure out how to do it) I'd like to actually go to an actual university (there are 2 in Nottingham after all) so 30 points towards an open degree (60 points from the next one)

Flat wise not a lot has changed but since the new plans have been formed I cannot afford to Ikea the hell out of the place but will have to do it bit by bit (which suits my personality anyway so thats good

Over the last month or so my brother has made 2 attempts to contact me - I've ignored him. I need to distance my self from my 'family' as they aren't any good for me and just make me angry/sad when I think about them - it's surprisingly easy to cut that tie.

Relationship wise,I'm not in one. The person I'm interested in isn't interested in me officially (typical) but I've had some time to deal with that and am just moving on.

The fact is that if my plans work I may finish up at Uni, may be living away from Nottingham, but in any case I want a proper life and am done with just talking about that.

The more drastic changes are a good while off yet but I'm laying the ground work now. Things are going to change over the next year or so.

Last month an old friend said that although I have my own place (secure tenancy in about 7 weeks) have a permanent job, have the start of a games set up I've dreamed about for years I still don't seem happy. I think thats because somethings missing, when I find that I think it'll all work out.

Updates to follow

Been ages since I last used this thing but here we go

flats coming on - kitchen and bathroom fitted kitcheny stuff back in

now wages seem to be sorted I can get some furnishings in and hopefully have a nice warm comfy home for xmas

I don't know how much back pay there is or exactly how much my wages are but I'm guessing that there will be enough there to get 2 pieces of kit from Ikea

http://www.ikea.com/gb/en/catalog/products/40140635

and

http://www.ikea.com/gb/en/catalog/products/40047675

I'm gonna try and get myself a kindle ereader and of course the obligatory books and stuff

Also pay off completely one of the 2 bills I was going to clear with the backpay

Also need a sofa from somewhere (+armchair) I'm thinking the Oxfams in Arnold (if they deliver)

So money and home sorted really

Now for the rest Jobs going to settle now wage wise and I don't need to worry about that until of course the rounds of redundancies start, oh well

As for the realtionship thing well to quote Facebook 'its complicated'

I'll know about the money week after next and then the running round starts.

It could be described as incredible

I've been here in my new flat (or Julians Shag Pad and Gaming Room - not my name for it but ...) for 10 days or so and I'm waking up

It's like I was asleep or dozing for years but now I'm independant able to do and go as I please and have this new project to complete.

Other things as well thoughts, feelings and parts of myself that I've ignored (supressed?) for ages are rising to the surface and I am becoming a better person for it.

it's a start but I have new goals and things I want to happen that can actually now can happen.

Are we sitting comfortably?

Then lets begin

J

Right so

Water - done
Electric - done
Virgin Media (10MB Broadband, all tv channels (yeah I know but...), phone to be fitted on the 05/08/10) - done

mostly painted - final coats going on this weekend
Bed - gotta line on one

Move date 31st July

This is it - my own place, wow, I mean a 2 bed city centre flat

Still waiting for it to fully sink in

Little bits of Joy floating to the surface (spontaneous smiles on occasion)

My pad
My decor
My new start

Life really is good sometimes

Well today I j...


wait ... just look at faceboook would ya!!

Very happy Jules

J

Heres update 2 !!!

Okay last saturday I failed to get the Magic cards I wanted (for various reasons) but thats okay it's gonna happen at some point

Bought a GW paintstaion which I'm putting together today, then messing around with figures.

Had a nice long chat with some of the guys at the pub last Saturday and gone someway towards solving my lack of gaming problem, which is nice

But the news is that at my PDR (work 'howya doing' meeting thing) my team leader gave me the review document for my ascension to scale 3 - I've read it and it is good so I hand it back to TL on Monday goes to business manager on Tuesday then to head of service then PROMOTION!!

However (theres always one of those) last year when I put in the request my TL said that it would be backdated to that day - in the meeting this week she said February 2010 - after some discussion she agreed to try and get it backdated to August last year - I discovered something about her during this meeting, If she made a promise that she has since found she cannot keep she apologises for 'misleading' you

This is the second time she's said that this year the other time I lost 2 and a half hours flexi.

However (good one this time) it's the scale 3 thats the important thing as it offers some protection against the clusterfuck that is Single Status and allows for some incremental increases in pay, so I'm happy about that.

In three weeks on Tuesday the biggest monthly bill I have will be cleared - this is a major victory and a great start - I have 3 other bills I want to clear this side of xmas then I have 2 large bills (now) which won't be so large then once they are gone I am outta here!!

Things are good!

Okay

So I'm gonna try and do regular updates on Saturday's with special stuff if anything kicks off during the week

This week

Well although the budget stuck it to loads of people as I'm only on 15,400 a year the whole tax allowance/'pay freeze' business means I'm gonna be better of from a wages point of view

However

The public sector cuts coming mean that a lot of us are probably gonna lose our jobs, so more money but maybe no job again (sigh okay here we go again)

Then theres VAT increase that eats into wages and all kinds of other interesting stuff that means uncertain futures for us all

And then my PC dies on me

Normally I'd run around desperately trying to fix/repair this but as I've been putting out fires on this thing for months I've decided to make do with the net book and keep half an eye out for a PC possibility

The loss of the PC and the budget means I have had to re examine my plans and have decided that I can't move out until I have sorted out more of my finances than I originally thought so quite possibly not moving this year.

This course of action isn't what I want to do by any means but is the sensible thing to do and (dammit) thats what I'm gonna have to do

I don't want to finish up moving out to the city with bills and then lose my job or something and finish up in debt, broke, and cut off from everyone (tried that before and quite frankly it almost killed me)

Plus as Mark is in as much danger of losing his Job as I am losing mine, I don't want to leave him in the lurch (he is my friend)

besides Mark and Rob are talking about doing the whole buy to let thing in a year or 2 and they say I can be the first vic... tenant of the new evil empire.

So todays plan involves moving the carcass of my desktop off my desk and turn it into a work area so I can do stuff without being perched on the edge

Meeting Langley at Mondo for catching up, chatting and messing around with magic cards, then off to the Pub!!

Sounds like a day to me

PC has apparently died

Last night when I got in I switched on to be greeted with the user account screen (the blue one) asking if I wanted to log in as Suze

I tried to (only option) and it just came back to the same screen

tried the usual (safe mode etc) nothing worked

came up with fantastic idea replace HD with old HD from 'THE BEAST'

after the XP loading screen - blank screen

don't know right now what to do, but may need new PC (course can't do that AND move)

See if you can guess what mood I'm in right now